Wandering

by Meghan Hewitt

My aunt has a bumper sticker that states Tolkien’s famous line, “Not all who wander are lost”. I find myself reflecting on that quote A LOT. Up until now, I have always felt that I have just been floating around grasping at whatever life throws my way. I mean, that’s all you can do, right? Make the most of what life throws at you, taking the journey as it comes, wandering the great landscape.

 I met my spouse in high school. You know what he told me when asked what he wanted to be when he graduated? An accountant. You know what he is now? An accountant.  In high school, I was still holding onto the idea that I would magically wake up with an amazing voice and be a rock star and make a bunch of money. He had a clearly delineated path, with signs, and a map on his metaphorical journey. I had absolutely no idea what I wanted to do, I couldn’t even find the dang trailhead for my journey! It took me four years of college and a year of working to direct me to my path. That’s where, at 23 years old, I decided to go to nursing school. At 23, when most of my social circle is starting their new careers, buying houses, having babies, I was starting all over again.

As a nurse practitioner, I have waded through some positions, taking less than desirable jobs because they were offered and “hey, its experience”. It was very easy just to accept my lot and stay with the status quo, but I couldn’t help feeling lost, truly lost and in despair.  

I truly believe, that Allie and I were brought together for a reason. My journey was ever so wayward, that our paths crossed at the same time. So that Allie and I could be in the same place, at the same time, and look at each other and say, “This isn’t how it’s supposed to be, for us, or for our clients”. It took a lot of perseverance and resilience to get here and it’s going to take a lot more to keep us here, but all this wandering is going to be worth it. And I hope by taking the time to read my little blurb, you decide to take heed and realize, you are never truly lost, maybe just a little turned around.

Allison McLaughlin